12:51 PM | Posted in


I've come to realize that my friend Liza is the most awesomest Bride-to-be that I've partied with...for so many reasons! She's dope! Congrats Ma!

Here are pictures from a small little get together (pre-bach party) last Friday and then Liza's bach party the night after.
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12:17 PM | Posted in ,



My godson Jay Esperanza Jr. turned 11 *sigh*


OK, so the AK 47s? HAHA, it's not what you think! I promised my godson J.J. a day at Dave and Busters to celebrate his 11th birthday so the three of us (of course lil' bro Jordan had to come too!) visited the Milpitas spot.

First stop...House of the Dead 4...hence the AK 47s. Yup, you know I got in the mix and shot a few zombies with them! The pictures speak for themselves...check them out.


Here they are eating and playing some other fun games:

This boy can EAT!

They got each others back!

JJ playing House of the Dead 3

Jordan and his new fave sport...Bowling.

While JJ took off to play more games...Jordan decided to hang out with his Ninang. ;)


FUN TIMES!
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11:46 AM | Posted in , ,
I happened to be at my second home, AKA the Estores residence, when Miss Aysiah Estores was coming home from school. It had been a week since I gave her the audio and lyrics for the song I wrote for her and I wanted to check it with her to see how she was doing with it. I know that she had a lot of school work since then so I wasn't expecting her to know the song at all yet. So I decided to put her on the spot by sticking my cell phone in her face as I asked her to give me what she had for the hook so far. I was pretty gosh darn happy with what I heard.

Check out the recording HERE.

Next on our agenda is to teach her to enunciate her words and give it more energy. She'll be good as golden in no time.
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4:20 AM | Posted in


I feel good. My eyes are fixated on the things motivating me to make this transition. It's ironic how remembering pain could make someone feel good. How so? Well, the pain is acting as if it's my own internal scare tactic reminding me that if I show weakness, it's all over for me. I can be kind of forgetful sometimes but this time I refuse to forget.

I don't know what it is. Maybe I've grown accustomed to witnessing "the bad" that any hint of "the good", is absurd. I want to be so careful this time because honestly I've never been so determined to experience the good that I know I deserve. I've managed to finally put myself in a certain mindstate that I believe will take me to the level that I want to be in.

I'm not sure if I make sense as I'm being a bit vague with my thoughts. I'm hoping these blog entries will end up being a success story showing that it is possible to recover from losing part of yourself (and not just me talking too much for no reason). I figure specific details are not necessary. ;)

In any case, this is all part of my journey to find and bring back simplicity amidst all of the complexities that surround me.
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7:32 PM | Posted in
How, you ask? Nothing else mattered. Whether it was night or day, I wouldn't have known the difference. No sleeping, no eating, no breathing for that matter. Life stood still because there was no life flowing through me. Don't worry though. Slowly but surely I am reviving and I know that life will find its way back to me again. The only difference this time around, is that it will be MY life to no one else's standards but MINE.

It's day 1 to my road to recovery, refinement, and rebirth. In due time the world according to me will be aligned again. It'll be a place where my understanding will be understood and where I can find my rhyme and reason making sense once and for all. I no longer place blame for the hardships of my life on everyone but myself. I take full responsibility of not doing my part to detour a lot of these challenges and not being able to anticipate them coming. Where was I? This place called "my comfort zone". The place where I have been safely covered and routine was at its finest. A place where I could duck and hide and if danger managed to seep its way in somehow...I knew exactly how to stop, contain, and dispose to make it all a happy place again. Dispose? Well, half way I guess.

I've come to learn that although we think we dispose of certain things that mess with us, we do a rush job in order to just get one with our lives. Rather than dispose of it properly and do a sanity check for any leftover remnants that can fall off in the process, we sweep it under the rug and hope that it never surfaces. Wishful thinking forreal. Like everything, that "rug" has a capacity to be able to cover all of these thing until it just says "fuck this dude, i ain't a trash can...take this shit and deal with it". Haha, right? Well for me, that day came. I ignored the warning signs. And when the time finally came where I had no choice but to deal with everything, I turned to step into my comfort zone only to find myself locked out left with a sign saying, "under construction, completion date: unknown". I'm like WTF?

So there I was. I had to go at this demon on my own, armed with only my strength, my knowledge, and my judgment. It took me a long time to accept the fact that this is how it has to be. Regardless of what came up from under that rug...it's up to me to determine how much of it stains me. I can't expect my comfort zone to open up again to protect me from the downpour of dirt. I'm sure that the reason why it's under construction is because the rug exploded in there as well. In any case, now that I've accepted this solo mission, the real challenges begin. Sifting through the ruins to try to make sense of it all, reorganize, and properly dispose of everything that needs to be removed from my life for good. Time for tip off!
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12:21 PM | Posted in


Peace to my fellow Filipinos worldwide. Thank you. RIP Francis M.
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12:19 AM | Posted in
My godson Jay Jr. had a concert today at school. It was so cute watching all of these 4th graders doing their thing. I guess it wasn't too entertaining for his brothers Jordan and Jared because they were snoozing the entire time haha. Check out the pics...

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3:32 AM | Posted in
I bet you read this title and said...WTF?!? has Jayme gone mad? Naw, it's just a recap of some of the stuff I've done over the past few days in no particular order. ;)


Last Thursday I had the pleasure of watching Wicked at the Orpheum in San Francisco. Let me just tell you...the show was off the hook. Something about the power of their voices sent shivers down my spine and goosebumps all over. I cried, I laughed, and I became a lifelong fan. I strongly recommend that you go see it if you haven't already.


The everso lovely Sophia came home to the Bay for a short visit so Bev and I went to meet up her and her bro, Johnny for a little shopping and catching up. Although it was only a short hang out session, each minute is more valuable than none when it comes to the ones you love. Speaking of love, I was able to buy shoes that are two things that I love (neither more than Sophia, of course!): Adidas and Purple. I first saw these in Boston but they were only available in Kids sizes, and have been looking for them ever since. Sounds like fate that I ran into them in SF.

My godson Ryley's school (the same exact school where his mom and I went to and met 26 years ago) had a Crab Feed over the weekend. Was it bad that I was pretty gosh darn excited about going to this? Not to mention...I brought extra Tupperware in my bag so that I have somewhere to stash the extra crab that I planned to smuggle to make crab dip. In any case, I had mad crazy stupid fun spending Saturday night feasting on all-u-can-eat crab plus all the fixins with 11 of my closest homies! Yup, and how lucky am I that my friends aren't the "I'll just have a small salad and water for dinner" type of people. My folks are the kind that know how to get down! Hootie Hoo!


(L-R) Bev scoping the grub || Josh looking hardcore ready to battle the crab buckets || Tuh's famous picture smile


(L-R) Cheryl has her battle gear on || Gily and Tiff right before they witnessed my crab crackin' skills


Ahh, the sight of Kris in a crab bib is all too familiar. Was this the time in Florida? Nah, nah. Ohhh, then this was that time in Boston! Nah, nah, nah. This was in good ole Fremont, CA! Word. HAHA my crab eating partner in crime!

The talented Miss AJ Estores

I finished writing and recording 2 songs and am in the middle of getting 2 more done this week, so I'm feeling a bit accomplished in the music department. :) Of the two that are already done, one happens to be for my musical protege and 10 year old niece, Ayshia "AJ" Estores. It's a G-rated song of course...appropriately titled, "Daddy Says". I tell you this little girl rocks my world sometimes. After listening to my recorded version of the song 3 times...why was she already able to get the melody down and sing the lyrics along with track? I could've cried, she blew my mind! Something about hearing someone else sing a song that you created...it's a blessing. She's decided to perform the song next month at her school's talent show so be on the look out for exclusive Socialush video coverage of that performance!
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12:42 AM | Posted in

a CONSCIENCE.

And for those who don't have a clue, here's what it means...

con⋅science

[kon-shuhns] Show IPA –noun
1. the inner sense of what is right or wrong in one's conduct or motives, impelling one toward right action: to follow the dictates of conscience.
2. the complex of ethical and moral principles that controls or inhibits the actions or thoughts of an individual.
3. an inhibiting sense of what is prudent: I'd eat another piece of pie but my conscience would bother me.
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1:58 AM | Posted in ,
The road towards this past weekend was pretty interesting. I witnessed a lot of inconsistency when it came to certain peoples behaviors which caused me to wonder what's really on their minds now a days. With that said, the fact that I had plans to be in Las Vegas for my cousins wedding was definitely an opportunity for me to step out of the box for a while.

The way my weekend started off was so unexpected. The plan was to stay at my Aunt & Uncle's house all weekend but another one of my aunts offered me a room on the strip so that I can be closer to everything. I couldn't say no to that, right? Man, she had pull for sure because I ended up with a suite to enjoy to myself (kinda sucked because my cousins weren't arriving until the next day so I couldn't share). So what did I do? I utilized the handy dandy jacuzzi that I found in my bathroom, kicked back and relaxed in the jets and bubbles while watching American Idol. haha. And yes, I lost track of time and stayed in there for an hour and turned into a raisin. It was definitely "me time" and it was exactly what I needed. Here are some pics from the suite:





After hanging out for another hour or so, I decided it was time for me to make some money. Let's just say, the next 2 and a half hours that I spent at the roulette table PAID off really well. ;) After that, caught some zz's and then back to the roulette table where again...the next 2 hours or so PAID off very nicely.

And then the fun came!...

This was a really special trip to me, being able to reunite with my childhood playmates after so many years of having lost touch with each other...where else would be more perfect than LV to be for this occasion. We have so many memories with each other and it's was so nice how we are all currently at the age where we've gotten passed the age/gender gaps -- for example, when some of us were 16, we would avoid our 8-10 year old cousins because they were too young to go to parties with us while on the flip side our 19-21 year old cousins would do the exact same thing to us. Now it's like whatever!...we've all grown and matured to a point where age gaps were just a thing of the past (however brought up a lot during our "remember when" stories). I joked around with my younger cousin Janelle and told her, "Back then you were trying to kick it with us but you were always way too young...and now we're trying to kick it with you!" In any case, the point I'm trying to make is about my appreciation for this past weekend...and that in my years of growing up, these people were such big parts of my life. Learning together, watching each others back, getting into trouble together, being family together. The fortunate thing is that although some of us lost touch with each other for such long periods of time... as long as 10-12 years...we can still come together and be THAT family again. It's like a lesson for myself really that makes me determined to not take time for granted. I can't automatically assume that the people I love will be here tomorrow and rather than waste time messing around with drama, I'd rather surround myself with whatever really makes me genuinely happy...and topping that list is family. Here are some random shots from my no sleep all fun weekend...

The groom Eric and his wifey Lorena

My cousin/god brother Jonathan and my cousin/sis of groom Grace

My cousin Gary and Grace's girlfriend Melanie

Indoor garden wedding...


Ahh, the girl cousins!

Continuing the party at TAO @ the Venetian

All in all it was an awesome weekend and I look forward to many more like it.

Congratulations to Mr. and Mrs. Eric and Lorena Soliven!
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